Kristen Renee (kiersten15) wrote,
Kristen Renee
kiersten15

blaaaahhhh

[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com bored]
[music| obsession-frankie j]


im boooored. im always bored. i lead a somewhat uneventful life. I guess I only have myself to blame. I'm just saving all my energy for the first minute of may 15. I'm actually suprised that I don't have my outfit picked out yet. That's so something I would do. Hey...I just like to be prepared. I can be organized when I want to be. Actually, it's kind of funny cause I love organizing things. Just not rooms and clutter. Like I can sit down for hours with a planner and organize my life or sit at the computer and write down every option of classes I could take and which would suit me best. I like organization. I just hate cleaning my room.

So..I'm a brunette again. It's so weird. I haven't had dark hair since like junior year. I was sooo used to being a blonde. I kinda like it. Michelle also cut like 2 inches off but it was dead hair and I seriously needed it. There was no way around the cut. Oh well. Hair grows back. I'm just going to have to treat my tresses a little better now since I color it so much and apply heat to it quite frequently. I do miss the length though....I don't know. I'm still torn. I can't wait for Mac to see it though. He said he liked the cut..you can't get a real good perception of the color through a webcam picture though. I'm nervous. I just want him to think I'm gorgeous as ever (wow did that sound conceited lol). So we will see. In a way I think it makes me look a little older...kinda makes me feel more mature. Like I should be going out and doing something with my life now. Get a job. Move out. Support yourself. That's how I feel. I had a breakdown on the phone with mac today. I think it was half pms-induced. But I just feel like I rely on my parents for everything. I want to feel like I'm worth something. I want to show myself that I am responsible and that I can support myself. I know I'm only 19 but I feel like I almost take them for granted. Like they provide everything for me (except gas). Isn't it time that I took a little responsibility for myself? I don't know I just feel bad. I want to make money and actually earn things rather than have them handed to me. I just think that they would be worth so much more that way. So I'm seriously looking at apartments now. I'm seriously going to put forth an effort to get a job. I just know that the first rent payment I make or the first item that I buy for myself with my earned money is going to feel sooo good. I just need to get off my lazy ass...that's all. I have goals. As in-getting married around 23-24. Jessica did it! I can too! Is it bad that me and mac had a fight over our wedding and non-existant kids the other day? So he wants to get married on the 50-yard line during the Michigan/OSU game. Hel-lo. I am NOT getting married in front of hundreds of people that I don't know...unless they're all supplying gifts and/or money. Also, he thinks that he's going to wear a Michigan colored tux. Ah no. And he wants to wait until he's 27-28 to get married. I told him fine...but he won't be marrying me. I have a life schedule I need to stick to. I can't wait to plan my wedding. It's going to be perfect. Hey, if anyone's planning on getting married and wants some help...I'll help! I just want to plan A wedding. I don't care whose it is. I just have an itch to.

So mikey's coming home tonight instead of tomorrow. He'll get home too late for me to see him tonight but I'm thinking about skipping a few (or all) of my classes tomorrow. None of them are really THAT important. I might go to my poli-sci class just because I want to talk to Les about a job at Taylor Meadows. Of course, he probably won't be in class tomorrow. He's lucky he's so informed about everything thats going on in politics. Believe it or not...I kinda enjoy the class. I would like to be more knowledgable about politics. I feel so useless not knowing anything. I voted and didn't really understand anything that was going on. (Except for the fact that I knew I DIDNT want Bush as president). I do enjoy my morning latte also. And listening to Mojo. Okay. So maybe first hour I can do. The rest...Who needs em?

Oh well. I'm gonna lay around and watch some tv. Crap! I just realised that Newlyweds and Ashlee were on tonight. Great job for me. I'm so absent-minded sometimes. Guess I'll have to catch reruns. Here's a little something for you to pass the time with. I thought it was kinda neat. My life soundtrack:

Opening credits: Ashlee Simpson - Autobiography

Waking up: Jill Souble - Supermodel (Hello people the song from Clueless)

Average day: Jennifer Lopez - Feelin So Good

First date: Sixpence None the Richer - Kiss Me

Falling in love: Ryan Cabrera - True

Love scene: Boyz II Men - I'll Make Love to You

Fight scene: Ashlee Simpson - Nothing New (taking this as a relationship fight)

Breaking up: Az Yet - Hard to Say I'm Sorry

Getting back together: Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing

Life's okay: Sugarcult - Stuck in America

Mental breakdown: Switchfoot - You

Driving: Shania Twain - Man! I Feel Like a Woman

Learning a lesson: Bubba Sparxx - Deliverance

Deep thought: Swirl 360 - Okay

Flashback: Greenday - Time of Your Life

Partying: Jagged Edge - Where the Party At

Happy dance: Ashlee Simpson - LaLa

Regreting: Lindsay Lohan - Disconnected

Long night alone: Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels like Home (from How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days...when they're on the ferry)

Death scene: The Used - On My Own

Closing credits: Foo Fighters - Everlong (acoustic)
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