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♥// Hit List

Color: Pink

Food: Mexican

Celeb: Jessica Simpson

Movie: The Notebook, Sweet Home Alabama, Scream, Rounders, The Girl Next Door

TV Show: Newlyweds, Friends, The OC, Apprentice, Tilt, Ashlee

Magazine: Cosmo, US Weekly, In Touch

Shoes: Steve Madden

♥// That's Hot

Shopping./.Dooney & Bourke./.Shoes./.The OC./.Friends./.Simple Life./.Newlyweds./.Ashlee Simpson./.Jessica Simpson./.Ryan Cabrera./.Nextel./.Sidekick 2./.iPod./.Pink./.Tanning./.Summer ./.50 Cent./.Eminem./.Us Weekly./.In Touch./.Cosmo./.Bud Light./.Dancing./.Water...with lemon

♥// Wish List

Anything from the Dooney & Bourke Hearts Collection

Juicy Couture "Juicy Girl" Day Dreamer bag

Melie Bianco "Laguna Beach" bag

Sidekick II

Maltipoo Puppy

-Juicy Bowling Bag Carrier for my puppy

New comforter set for my bed

Bartender Book

Diamond Tennis Bracelet

My iPod glitzed with Swarovski crystals

Steve Madden shoes

True Relgion Bobby Destroyed Jeans

Tee-shirts from ShopIntuition.com

Tops from Wet Seal/Forever 21

A tiara that says "Princess" to wear on my Bday

♥//To Do List

Find a Job

Move into my apartment

Get Mac a 2-year gift

Pass my classes

Sign up for summer online class

Get hair done

Get a puppy

Put money in the bank before I can spend it

Find outfit for my birthday

Clean my car-inside and out

♥// Addictions

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maybe i'm amazed at the way you love me all the time. maybe i'm amazed at the way i love you. maybe i'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time. maybe i'm amazed at the way i really need you.
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[05 Apr 2005|03:45pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com cheerful]
[music| Ok Go - You're So Damn Hot (download it...it'll make you smile. it's from the oc)]

Ok. So gorgeous weather makes me soooo happy. I just get in the best mood ever when it's nice out. I think I have seasonal depression. I wasn't built for the cold. It's not normal to wear sweats when it's 80 degrees out. But yes, I do it. Because I'm always cold. I deserve to live in Arizona or Cali. Oh, p.s. I'm sitting outside right now on my laptop. Thank the Lord for wireless internet. I think that fact that I'm online and outside just makes me 20x more happier.

I had my first day of work yesterday. Oh my lord did my legs hurt like hell after. I woke up today and my knees were burning they felt like they were seriously on fire. It kinda sucked. But...according to my calculations...I did make $63 yesterday alone. I get paid $7/hour to train and I worked 9 hours. 9 hours. Ridiculous. ICE CREAM TRUCK! ok wow that excited me...sorry for the outburst. First ice cream truck of the year. That's something to celebrate. But anyways. I like it...the guys are all really cool. I got to ring a couple things up so maybe that'll give me a few extra bucks. Maybe not though. Oh well. It's fun. I just have to get the hang of everything. There's so much to memorize. And I'm still scared that one day someone's going to come in yelling at me about their phone and I'm just gonna cry. I would do something like that. I'm Kristen. I'm sensitive. Something I'm sure I'll have to get over.

Martin just informed me about the 50/Eminem concert. August 12. At COPA. Eminem, 50 cent, Lil Jon, Obie, D12. It's going to be the absolute best time ever. I cannot wait. I told him to get tickets. Mac already said that he wanted to go. So that's what I'm most excited for right now. Even though its....5 months away. Wow. 5 months. 5 months and Mac will be going back to school, i'll be starting at eastern, it'll be like 4 months away from Christmas. Time just flies by so much faster as you get older. Years lasted forever as a kid. I kinda miss it. But HELLO. I turn 19 in 40 days bitches. Ashley Howard...I know you read this...Get your ass ready. My mom's getting me hotel rooms at the casino. We're going Saturday night cause my Bdays on a Sunday and we're gonna rock out at midnight. It's gonna be intense. You should go! I want everyone to go. I want it to be the best birthday ever. I'm just gonna be obligerant. And I won't have to worry about crossing the border...I'll only be a 5 minute cab ride from where I'm staying. Granted, I probably won't be able to make it up to the room without serious help from someone. It'll be hot though. Promise.

But ok. I have to find out where my mommy is so we can go to Pennys and get pants for me to wear to work tomorrow. My Mikey will be home in 2 days and then it's anniversary weeekned!!!! YAAAAYYYY! 2 years. Geez. Talk to you later my loves.
1 Want to /♥/ Kiss Me

[02 Apr 2005|06:08pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com aggrevated]
[music| Ryan Adams - Wonderwall]

I finished all 7 discs of the OC. I think I may undergo severe depression because of this. I'm like 20x more addicted to the OC now. I cannot wait until season 2 comes out on dvd. I made myself an OC cd to help myself cope. I'm usually not into all that kinda music (i'm a big rap girl myself) but I like it because I can associate it with the show. Like I'll be listening to a song and I can think, oh that's when this happened on the show. I'm a nerd. Oh well.

So I hate my boyfriend. What an ass is all I have to say. We were doing excellent. Perfect. But for some reason...his cottage just produces mass amounts of anger for the both of us. He went over there with the guys for the weekend. What do you know, Thursday night...well...Friday morning actually at 430am he calls me. We get in the biggest fight. We haven't fought in a while so this one was just massive. I wanted to kill him. I dind't want to date him I didn't want to talk to him I didn't want to associate myself with him. He was just a complete drunken idiot. So he apologizes. Okay. Today. I call him to see how he's doing cause he didn't call me last night. This was at 11am. Mind you, he calls me all the time and wakes me up between the hours of 3 and 5am almost daily. But no, I call him and I get yelled at..."OKAY that is completely unnecessary! Im going to sleep I'll call you when I wake up". And this was in no where near a nice tone. So he proceeds to turn his phone off after that. So I call him back and leave him a message asking him what the fuck his problem is and telling him that I don't want to talk to him for the rest of the weekend and I'm turning my phone off. He hasn't even attempted calling me. Okay. Guys...we say that we don't want to talk to you...YOU CALL US ANYWAYS TO APOLOGIZE!! GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEADS!!! I'm so pissed off at him. I hope he doesn't call because then I'll know that his friends were more important than me and I can fight with him more. Am I vengeful? Yes. I'll be the first to admit it. I like revenge. I believe that 2 wrongs do make a right. I was good in math in high school...2 negatives make a positive, right? I just hate how he gets around the guys. Like they don't even care about you. Mr. Tough Guy. My ass. I wish I could tape him while he's with me and then again when he's around me and the guys at the same time. Two completely different people. Fucking dumbass piece of shit that I call my boyfriend. I may not make it to next Sunday and the 2 year mark. I think I might kill him first.
Kiss Me

[31 Mar 2005|12:21am]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com accomplished]
[music| ryan adams - wonderwall (oc is love)]

Sooooooo I got a job today!!!! Thank the lord for Misty. I'll fill ya in. Friday we went to Bertos and I got kinda drunk cause I hardly ever drink anymore. Weird, I know. Anyways. Misty ends up over there and I haven't seen the girl in forever cause I guess her and Hopkins had some kind of falling out or something and so she hasn't been around. So she comes over to me and I didn't remember her at first. OMG I felt like the absolute biggest ass ever. I seriously felt so bad. And on top of that she was like, oh you need a job? You should come up to wireless toyz. So yeah she got me a job and I didn't even remember her name. I was drunk. I blame that. And I haven't seen her in forever! I still feel bad. I'm gonna get her number from Mac and apologize and thank her for helping me. She's such a sweetheart too. I'm so excited. I get $7/hr to train and then it gets bumped up to $8/hr with commission. I'm gonna make awesome money. So me and my mom are gonna go look at a couple apartments after school tomorrow. I'm just gonna skip Sociology. Like I always do on Thursdays. It's mine and Kieley's (the girl I sit next to) tradition. Ugghhhhhhhhh. AIM isn't working. GAY GAY GAY. I hate not being online. It's so irritating. After this episode of the OC I'm gonna restart my computer and see if that helps. I'm so addicted now. I've watched 5 our of 7 discs. I didn't watch all of the first season so this is just sex for me. I haven't missed an episode of the second season though. Thank the lord for TiVo. I definately need to get that for my apartment. But alright. I'm gonna go finish this episode, try and fix my aim, and get some rest. Maybe I'll dream of what to get Mac for our anniversary. Because I have no idea myself. Goodnight lovers.
Kiss Me

[28 Mar 2005|11:58pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com exhausted]
[music| the oc bitch]

sooooooo I didn't get my sidekick. booo. but I did, however, get the OC season 1 on dvd. That, my friends, I was excited about. I'm on the second disc...of six. I could possible be in heaven. Easter was good. Went to my grandmas for dinner at 3 and mac came then we went back to his house for the night. He was supposed to leave this morning but ended up staying until 830. I love it when he's home. I'm always sooo happy. I get cranky when he's at school. I hate missing him. He should stay home and love me all the time. hehehe. But I am very excited because the Sunday after this one coming up is our 2 year anniversary!!!! 2 years. Crazy. I have no idea what I'm going to get him. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. I refuse to give him money to play poker with. I want to get him something that will last longer than 8 hours. I guess my cousins are coming in not this weekend but the next weekend for my little cousins first communion. Nicole and Aaron, that is. Let me just tell you that I'm the oldest grandkid on my dads side. My cousin Nicole is the only other girl and is a year and a half younger than me. So she's 17 right now. Her and her bf have been going out for like a year I think...if that. She's coming out here with her boyfriend and my other cousin (her brother). None of us, except my gma and gpa, have met this kid. Am I the only one who thinks that this is absolutely insane? My aunt and uncle arent even coming out. She's 17. Less than a year. That's just really weird to me. But whatever. I'm gonna watch some more of the OC and then head to bed. School tomorrow. Gay. See you later gorgeous.
Kiss Me

blaaaahhhh [23 Mar 2005|10:17pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com bored]
[music| obsession-frankie j]

im boooored. im always bored. i lead a somewhat uneventful life. I guess I only have myself to blame. I'm just saving all my energy for the first minute of may 15. I'm actually suprised that I don't have my outfit picked out yet. That's so something I would do. Hey...I just like to be prepared. I can be organized when I want to be. Actually, it's kind of funny cause I love organizing things. Just not rooms and clutter. Like I can sit down for hours with a planner and organize my life or sit at the computer and write down every option of classes I could take and which would suit me best. I like organization. I just hate cleaning my room.

So..I'm a brunette again. It's so weird. I haven't had dark hair since like junior year. I was sooo used to being a blonde. I kinda like it. Michelle also cut like 2 inches off but it was dead hair and I seriously needed it. There was no way around the cut. Oh well. Hair grows back. I'm just going to have to treat my tresses a little better now since I color it so much and apply heat to it quite frequently. I do miss the length though....I don't know. I'm still torn. I can't wait for Mac to see it though. He said he liked the cut..you can't get a real good perception of the color through a webcam picture though. I'm nervous. I just want him to think I'm gorgeous as ever (wow did that sound conceited lol). So we will see. In a way I think it makes me look a little older...kinda makes me feel more mature. Like I should be going out and doing something with my life now. Get a job. Move out. Support yourself. That's how I feel. I had a breakdown on the phone with mac today. I think it was half pms-induced. But I just feel like I rely on my parents for everything. I want to feel like I'm worth something. I want to show myself that I am responsible and that I can support myself. I know I'm only 19 but I feel like I almost take them for granted. Like they provide everything for me (except gas). Isn't it time that I took a little responsibility for myself? I don't know I just feel bad. I want to make money and actually earn things rather than have them handed to me. I just think that they would be worth so much more that way. So I'm seriously looking at apartments now. I'm seriously going to put forth an effort to get a job. I just know that the first rent payment I make or the first item that I buy for myself with my earned money is going to feel sooo good. I just need to get off my lazy ass...that's all. I have goals. As in-getting married around 23-24. Jessica did it! I can too! Is it bad that me and mac had a fight over our wedding and non-existant kids the other day? So he wants to get married on the 50-yard line during the Michigan/OSU game. Hel-lo. I am NOT getting married in front of hundreds of people that I don't know...unless they're all supplying gifts and/or money. Also, he thinks that he's going to wear a Michigan colored tux. Ah no. And he wants to wait until he's 27-28 to get married. I told him fine...but he won't be marrying me. I have a life schedule I need to stick to. I can't wait to plan my wedding. It's going to be perfect. Hey, if anyone's planning on getting married and wants some help...I'll help! I just want to plan A wedding. I don't care whose it is. I just have an itch to.

So mikey's coming home tonight instead of tomorrow. He'll get home too late for me to see him tonight but I'm thinking about skipping a few (or all) of my classes tomorrow. None of them are really THAT important. I might go to my poli-sci class just because I want to talk to Les about a job at Taylor Meadows. Of course, he probably won't be in class tomorrow. He's lucky he's so informed about everything thats going on in politics. Believe it or not...I kinda enjoy the class. I would like to be more knowledgable about politics. I feel so useless not knowing anything. I voted and didn't really understand anything that was going on. (Except for the fact that I knew I DIDNT want Bush as president). I do enjoy my morning latte also. And listening to Mojo. Okay. So maybe first hour I can do. The rest...Who needs em?

Oh well. I'm gonna lay around and watch some tv. Crap! I just realised that Newlyweds and Ashlee were on tonight. Great job for me. I'm so absent-minded sometimes. Guess I'll have to catch reruns. Here's a little something for you to pass the time with. I thought it was kinda neat. My life soundtrack:

Opening credits: Ashlee Simpson - Autobiography

Waking up: Jill Souble - Supermodel (Hello people the song from Clueless)

Average day: Jennifer Lopez - Feelin So Good

First date: Sixpence None the Richer - Kiss Me

Falling in love: Ryan Cabrera - True

Love scene: Boyz II Men - I'll Make Love to You

Fight scene: Ashlee Simpson - Nothing New (taking this as a relationship fight)

Breaking up: Az Yet - Hard to Say I'm Sorry

Getting back together: Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing

Life's okay: Sugarcult - Stuck in America

Mental breakdown: Switchfoot - You

Driving: Shania Twain - Man! I Feel Like a Woman

Learning a lesson: Bubba Sparxx - Deliverance

Deep thought: Swirl 360 - Okay

Flashback: Greenday - Time of Your Life

Partying: Jagged Edge - Where the Party At

Happy dance: Ashlee Simpson - LaLa

Regreting: Lindsay Lohan - Disconnected

Long night alone: Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels like Home (from How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days...when they're on the ferry)

Death scene: The Used - On My Own

Closing credits: Foo Fighters - Everlong (acoustic)
Kiss Me

i have direction!!!! [17 Mar 2005|01:16am]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com happy]
[music| the gentle hum of my laptop]

Ok so I'm so excited!! I finally have direction in my life. I've decided that I'm going to Easten next year to start education in fashion merchandising. It's totally motivated me to get good grades and work harder. This is something I seriously want to do. Mac always tells me I should be in this and tonight I was talking to my dad about it. He was like, I've always told you that you have an eye for colors and fabrics and stuff. He's really supportive of it and thinks it's a great idea for me. I'm so excited. I can't even describe it. I was talking to Megan about it too. (p.s...i miss her like crazy) She said that she totally wants to say screw teaching and get into it too. I think it would be a good field for her. We're so much alike. If she were my roommate...oh lord I would adore it. We'd have so much fun together. We didn't fight once at Ferris. We just have personalities that go really well together and just can't get sick of each other. I love her! We're supposed to hang out either this weekend or 2 weeks from this weekend. Since Mac will be home next weekend and he just absorbs all of my time. Not that I'm complaining. I love spending all the time in the world with the love of my life. I yelled at him today though because he's like a different person up there and puts me behind everything else going on. All I ask is for a little phone time but noooo playing beer die (or playing cards, or watching espn, or talking to his rooommates, or getting wasted) is more important than taking 5 minutes out to talk to me, his gf. Stupid boys. I told him if he did it again I'd break up with him. Maybe I can scare him into making time to talk to me. lol. I'm so mean. But yea me and Megan were talking and said we should join the AXiD chapter at Eastern. How hilarious would that be? The AXiD girls at Ferris would shit themselves. They would just lose it. I actually would love to do it just to spite them. But no I really still think about greek life alot. It seems like it would have been such a great opportunity. Too bad it was ruined by a bunch of fake bitches. Word on the street is that they still talk about us. It's like, hello...seriously...get over yourselves..and get over us. I didn't know me and Meg had that big of an impact on you. I mean, I know we're hot and have great personalities...(just joking...im not conceited!!! i'm a very modest person). So anyway. Yep. That's about it. It's 130 and I think I should get some sleep. I want to make a Dunkin Donuts run tomorrow morning to pick up an iced latte. I am dying for an iced chai from starbucks but there's just not enough time cause they're always so packed in the morning. Mmm...it sounds like heaven though. Oh well I'll settle for a latte. Just something to pick me up. Have a great night. Love you bitches!
1 Want to /♥/ Kiss Me

procrastination is a bitch [14 Mar 2005|03:02pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com lazy]
[music| Boyz II Men - If I Ever Fall In Love Again]

Oooooooooh lord. I have a book report due tomorrow. I haven't started the book yet. What to do. What to do. I need to get my ass into gear and get motivated. I really need to work hard and get good grades this semester. And I need to remember to transfer my grades to HFCC. Oops. Should've done that a while ago. Oh well. So I think I decided I want to take classes at Eastern. I just don't know if I'm going to go next year or for my Junior year. I was talkin to A*Ho Monday night about school and she said she was going into fashion merchandising. So I thought, hey, I like clothes. I like fashion. Mac always tells me I should go into fashion because I'm always analying people's clothes on tv or whatever. So I looked around. Seems like really the only place around here that has anything is Eastern. Perfect. And I'll probably go for a double major in that and management. Either that or just get my minor in management. Or marketing. I'm finally getting some direction in life. Now I just need to get the damn motivation. I was talking to my Mikey today and he said that if he gets the assistant coaching job at Eastern then in like 5 or so years the head coach will probably go to a bigger school like Michigan State or something and mac would go with him and then that would pave the way for him to get a head coaching job at a smaller school like Eastern and then he could get up to the bigger schools after that. He said that's how alot of head coaches get up there. It's just so exciting. I'm so incredibly happy for him I just can't help myself from saying it over and over. He said he really wants to go to Eastern next year. I know he has a good time at Central I just think he'd be happier at home. Especially if he's getting a chance to do something that he absolutely loves. It just saves you sooooooo much money to be home. It's absolutely ridiculous. I haven't spent like 1/20th of what I spent at school by this time. But alright I should go work on reading. But I think I might make a new layout for my lj instead. I get bored of things fast. If you didn't know me that well. See ya later bitches!
Kiss Me

Whatever... [12 Mar 2005|06:47pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com depressed]

So just got in a fight with my mom. She told me she didn't love me. Told me she didn't care if I never came home. I'm feeling really good about myself right now. I stay home every single night for like 3 months. I never do ANYTHING. So Mac comes home for a week. I spend the week with him. During this week they look for any single god damn thing to bitch at me for. It's like I'm the worst kid in the world. Like I never spend time with them and I'm out partying every single night. No. Wrong. I thought I was going to get to spend time with my mom Wednesday. Just hang out-go shopping. Nope. Scott comes and I end up walking from store to store by myself. She's either behind me or ahead of me messing with him. So I do not want to hear her bitch to me about spending time with me. It's sooo frustrating. I wish I lived away from here. I just want my own place. I actually would love to live out of state right now. So I didn't have to be anywhere near them. Whatever. As soon as Mac's done eating dinner I'm going to be back over there. I wish I didn't have to come home. Actually...I might ask if I can just spend the night at Mac's tonight. It would make me feel a hell of a lot better.

On the flip side. I do have good news. Coach Price knows someone who's up for the Eastern head basketball coach job. If the guys gets it...Coach Price is going to be the assistant coach. Then Mac's going to be guaranteed a spot on board. They were talking about it hard core last night. Like about him going to Eastern next year for his internship and they were like, we'll just make up some bull shit degree for you at eastern so you can graduate there. Do you even know how exciting that is? A real coaching job for him. At a college. Close to home! I'm just like sooooo unbelieveably happy for him. You have no idea. This is a great oppourtunity for him and I really hope that it works out. And plus...he would be back home. So of course that makes me happy too. lol. But I really do hope he gets it just becasue I know how much it means to him.

I hate going home. Any time I'm away from him...I miss him. It's like I couldn't be happier. He is everything and more to me. I fall more in love every day. 2 years in just a month! Best 2 years of my life...
1 Want to /♥/ Kiss Me

blaaaaaah [08 Mar 2005|03:19pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com crappy]
[music| montel]

Im getting sick! Boo. So I had a good night last night. Went over my dads and had chinese which I haven't had in forever so that was good. Then I came back to my moms and Rose showed up. We just sat around watchin Friends for a few until Mac and Goob showed up. And then all of a sudden it was me with about 10-15 guys. I sat upstairs waitin for the girls to show up. So Martin came and then Ashley Howard and Mike Pangrazzi, both of who I was ecstatic to see, then Hanny and then Mary. So we sat upstairs talking and it was really a good time. Especially because Howard told me that Ferris just signed up for the Facebook. I can't tell you how excited I was. No more stupid FerrisFacebook or College Facebook. I'm big time now bitches. So anyway I think I got to sleep around like 5am and Mac, KWill, Joey, and I think Sean were still downstairs playing cards. So Mac comes up to my room to go to sleep and I guess I was like having a bad dream about him playing cards or something becasue I just went off on him like I was screaming at him and told him to get the hell out of my house and that I wasn't going to lend him anymore money and then I broke up with him. Wow it was weird. He said he was like scared for his life becasue I told him I was going to elbow him in the face as hard as I could. I'm so violent. I've been really cranky lately when I get woken up. I think I got it from him. But so yeah that was interesting. And so we slept and I woke up at like 1030 and cleaned up the house. Oh yeah I went like OCD last night and started vaccuuming at around 4am I think. I mean, hello. I was intense cleaning like I got all the cans together and put things back in their place and vaccuumed the whole upstairs. I was crazy. So now I'm just waitin for my parents to get home. I'm hungry. They need to feed me. Oh well. Talk to you later bitches. Love!
Kiss Me

sippin on coke and rum, i'm like, so what im drunk! [07 Mar 2005|06:30pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com calm]
[music| Ignition Remix - R. Kelly]

Soooooo my parents are gone for the night. I haven't been drunk in a while. What a perfect time to have a little gathering of friends and drink the night away. So that is my plan. I'm about to go over my dad's to eat Chinese and then come back to my moms and get the night started. Don't worry. I'll let you know how things go. Hope you have a good night. Hey, if you get bored...call me. It's sure to be a good time. My house is pretty much a great party house. Darts, pool, air hockey, big screen. It'll be a good time. See you later!
Kiss Me

yawn [06 Mar 2005|01:09pm]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com sleepy]
[music| new 50 cd]

So my mom woke me up at 9:20 this morning. I was not very happy about this turn of events. I just want to sleeeeeeeep. This is the perfect time too cause they went to the movies. So why am I not asleep? I have no idea. I'm about to call Mac and see what he's doing. I can always fall asleep quick at his house. I don't know what it is. I think they pump sleeping gas through the vents. So my parents are gonna be gone tomorrow night. I think I want to have some people over. I need to drink and hang out. I haven't drank in sooo long. It seems like forever. I'm kinda glad though. I'm staying relatively healthy. I haven't eaten fast food since like New Years time. I also haven't drank any pop in a couple weeks. I've been eating alot of fruit and drinking pretty much only water. I want to lose 3 lbs. That's it. I love myself at 115. I think it's like the perfect weight. And it fits me well at 5'6. I just feel bloated all the time...ew. Stupid water weight. I don't think I'm going to be able to handle being pregnant when I get older. I hate seeing myself with any kind of weight gain. Even if it's barely noticable. I'm ocd about it. I wish I was ocd about working out. I need to get in shape. I probably couldn't run around the block without being out of breath. Stupid laziness. I must conquer it. I want to take a pilates class. I need to do it with someone who will keep me motivated. So the search is on. Well I'm gonna try to take a lil nappy-poo. Nighty Nite.

P.S.-The mission to convince my dad to buy me a sidekick for easter is on. Wish me luck!!
Kiss Me

what am i doing awake? [06 Mar 2005|03:38am]
[mood| Image hosted by Photobucket.com exhausted]
[music| shhhh it's sleepy time ]

Soooo I spent like 3 hours working on this damn layout. But I'm proud of myself. For the most part. There's still some stuff I would change but I enjoy it as of right now. Yay for me! Mikey fell asleep early tonight so I decided I would let him sleep and I came home. And here I am at 3:42 am. Still awake. Am I freaking insane? I think so! I'm watching Newlyweds and it's so bad for me to watch because I just fall in love with Daisy more and more every time I watch it. SOOOOOO CUTE!! I can't wait until I get my puppy. Which I will get, thank you. Ugh I dont think I can stay up any longer. I know my mom's going to wake me up for church in the morning too. GAY! I'm so over church and catholicism right now. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it right now. Pray for the apartment to open up soon. Goodnight loves.
Kiss Me

you make me wanna la la [04 Mar 2005|01:56am]
[ mood | tired ]

I get bored...I play around on the computer. I made my new header. Oooh...aaah...yeah, I know. I love playing around in photoshop. There's just so much you can do. Yeap that's right I'm a big computer geek. I've been around computers since I was about 9. They're kind of second nature to me. We had AOL when it first came out and was slow as hell. It was an interesting time, back then.

I want a sidekick. I think I may get a sidekick. They're just so cute and look like so much fun. I would be addicted so fast. Unlimited AIM!?! HELLO!! I would text my megan 24/7.

My Mikey's home. A whole entire week...plus a couple more days. Oh how excited I am!! :D

I'm sleeepy. I think I may go to bed.

Goodnight loves, have pleasant dreams.

Kiss Me

i need to marry into wealth... [03 Mar 2005|12:16am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Ok so I'm out of control. So I want this Juicy bag. I want this Juicy pet carrier after I get my maltipoo puppy that I want. I want the entire handbag collection from Dooney and Boukre. Chanel sunglasses. And thes gorgeous True Religion jeans. Where did this designer hook come from? Oh well I credit it to the bahamas and the purchase of my first Dooney bag. Damn heat. So I need to marry someone rich so that they can support my needs. I bought my wallet today! horray!!! I was sooo excited. I called like 15 different stores and finally found it out in waterford. So I drove 40 minutes for a wallet and then came back home. Silly me. So worth it though. I wish they made checkbook covers. :P Well I need to get to sleep. I decided I'm skipping Econ and Psych tomorrow so I can study for Sociolgy. I just had a test in both classes so I shouldn't miss anything. Lucky me! And on that note...I'm goin to bed. See YOU in the a.m.

Oh and P.S.....my baby comes home tomorrow!!! For over a week!!!! YAY!

Kiss Me

I'm weak...it's true.... [01 Mar 2005|11:27pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Ok so I just may be the happiest girl alive today!!! I bought myself this wristlet in white. And tomorrow my mommy's going in part way and helping me buy this id/coin purse/wallet to match my purse!! I get to feed my Dooney and Bourke obsession one piece at a time. I can't say how happy I am. Anyone that would like to feed to my addiction...I'm taking donations. That's really all for now. I feel exhausted. See you in the a.m.

Kiss Me

scared out of my mind. [28 Feb 2005|09:49pm]
[ mood | scared ]

Ok so I just got done watching The Grudge with my stepdad. Oooh my lord. I have not seen a scarier looking kid in my entire life. What a freaky movie. I think that may be above The Ring. I don't know they're equally scary as hell. I may have nightmares for the rest of my life. I'm gonna be terrified to wake up in the middle of the night and look at the cieling. ughghghg. scary.

So Ryan Cabrera was on the View today. I love him. He's so cute and has just an amazing voice and oh lord. I think I would die if I got to meet him. He's definately my celebrity crush at the moment. And I cannot get enough of the song True. And on another note. Thera...who I haven't talked to since like the first week of my senior year...who's had my screen name on block since about that time...just took me off block out of nowhere. I'm sitting here and at approximately 9:43 her sn pops up on my buddy list. It was quite a suprise. Awfully weird and random if you ask me. It's good to see some people can grow up and move on though...unlike rodger who still hates me for absolutely no reason at all. Dumbass. He's one persons ass I would love to just tear into. Oh well I guess other people just can't let high school go...even when they've been out of it for 2 years.

Next week is spring break. I'm not going anywhere. I never have. I need to save my money. Besides I could never go on spring break without mac like I wouldn't feel right and I wouldn't be able to handle it if he went somewhere without me. That's just too much trust waiting to be broken...in any relationship. But on a good note, my parents are thinking about going to Vegas for the week or at least a couple days cause I guess there's 2 spots open for the week. That would be just amazing. One whole week with an empty house and mac will be home on spring break too and oh i would just love it. My dad would still be home but I could just say that I was staying at my moms so I could feed the cats in the morning. It would be easy to get away with. So that's what I'm hoping for!! Cross your fingers people. It would be a banging week downriver. But alright, I'm gonna go watch RR/RW challenge uncensored and maybe study for damn midterms. Love you later!

Kiss Me

Continuance [28 Feb 2005|12:17pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Aaaaaaand I'm back. Just said bye to my baby. I can't be sad this time because he'll be home in 3 days again! Horray! This is really the first time I've been genuinely happy since probably Christmas. It's weird becasue last year right around this time and i think junior year, too, I just got really depressed. Actually it's more mid January to late February. Maybe it's just the time of year or because I'm breaking down after Christmas and New Years and everything. It's just a hard time of year for me every year. But now it's starting to get warmer and spring and my birthday are approaching. I love warm weather. I love wearing skirts and getting dolled up. I don't wear shorts though. I think it's beacuse I don't like how high they sit up on your hips. I'm self-concious of my thighs in shorts but not in skirts. I'm weird. Oh well what can you do? Ah I'm so over school right now. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and that really doesn't help to motivate me. I have no life direction at this point. I'm just a mess in life. I want to stay young forever and never have to work and just be able to spend money like it's my job. That should be my job-spending money. That would be amazing. There's so much that I want to buy but I can't because I have to save up so I can move the hell out of this house. I really just need to be on my own right now. I want to learn responsibility. I want to be able to make it on my own. I want to prove that I can do SOMETHING. Well, right now I need to order a book for econ, clean my room, burn dvds for my mom, deposit money in the bank, shower, and find out what the hell i'm supposed to do about a project that I was supposed to do for management like 2 weeks ago. Oops. Talk to you bitches later. Love ya!

Kiss Me

i want a puppy. [28 Feb 2005|10:45am]
So that's it. I want a puppy. I just had a dream about a cute little black, soft, fuzzy one and omg I want one. Like, say, this one for example. Just a cute maltipoo puppy!!! I'm hungry right now though. Mac told me he was leaving at 10. It's now 10:48 and I still haven't talked to him. He's sleeping. I would bet my life on it. Silly mikey. I yelled at him last night for his card habits. It's just gotten a little out of hand and I think he needs to take a break. He owes so much money to people and he can't stop. So I told him he needs to get his damn priorities straight. But ok I just got ahold of him so I'm gonna go wake my baby up. Update in a few.
Kiss Me

it must be love [25 Feb 2005|01:03am]
[ mood | loved ]

I love when you fall in love with someone all over again. I feel like it happens every time I see my baby. Words cannot express how happy I felt tonight. How happy I am right now. This is my favorite part of any day, ever. I love being in love. There really is nothing that can compare to the feeling you get when you look at someone and you just know that they are why you wake up every morning and why you get a smile on your face out of nowhere. I need to go to sleep though. Waking up early to go with my mom to check on my apartment and then going and spending the rest of the day with the love of my life, my michael ryan. catch ya'll later.

Kiss Me

school's for fools [22 Feb 2005|07:36am]
[ mood | loved ]

"One day you're just living life...and the next day, someone comes along, and you can't imagine how you ever lived your life without them."

Ah love. I think back to 2 years ago. What my relationship was like back then. I don't even know if you could call it a relationship exactly. I had no idea what I was doing. Mac was my first real boyfriend. I was stupid (not saying much has changed in THAT department). I can't believe we made it through that point. And then I look at everything we've been through. I can remember every event in our relationship, significant or not. What really suprises me is that he pretty much can too. I was talking to him about a big point in our relationship and I didn't know the exact date, just that it was either that monday or tuesday and he got mad at me for not knowing the date (which he did). He just always seems to suprise me. There's no one that I could get more frustrated or irritated with. But there's no one that I could be more in love with. I was looking through my Junior year photo album the other day and came across pictures before we started going out or right after and it's just crazy how much of a smile it brought to my face. I love remembering the past. I love thinking how much we've both grown as people and in our relationship. I really don't know how I lived my life without him before. He brought out so much in me that I didn't know was there. I know I make a big deal about some things but it's just because I know what I saw and still see in him and I think, ya know...someone else is going to see that in him and they're going to be better than me and he's going to realize it. I'm just a jealous person naturally. It comes from being an only child the first 15 years of my life. I can't handle him with other girls. Especially girls he has history with. Ok I lied...ANY GIRLS. It's just hard for me. And I know I'm dumb cause, of the friends I do have, I'd say more are guys. And I know that the lp guys tell mac, oh man me and your gf are gonna go have sex, or, kristen's hot man what are you doing with her. But it's different! I don't know how...but it is. Cause he's not a jealous person. I AM! But...I know that he knows how much I really do love him. And I know the same from him. To me it seems like the past 23 months have flown by. It seems like just yesterday I was sitting in Katie's room wasted just staring out the window laughing to myself and he walked in. God, it was just chance that he came upstairs to use the bathroom. It was just by crazy CHANCE that we ended up together. It's like it was fate. And I could not be happier that we did end up together. As much as I complain...its all because I just miss him when he's gone. In a perfect world I could see him every day. Guess I'll just have to wait for summer to get anything close to that. Until then...I'm actually happy to be able to miss him. Cause it makes seeing him one-thousand times more special.

SO ANYWAY. I just had to share my love cause I'm so excited I get to see him in 2 days and I'm feeling especially loving. But yea...I'm skipping my first 2 classes today. Oops. We took a test thursday in poli-sci so why go today? And in management...me and erica didn't do our project so we just decided to skip today and thursday. Maybe go out to breakfast...you know. I'm such a bad kid. Hey. At least I don't skip as much as mac does. He's bad! I have to call surma today and find out when she wants to schedule an interview. Yep you heard right. I may have a job. Me and surma went and applied friday and our friend mike works there and said we should schedule an interview with his boss at the same time so she can get us both out of the way quicker. He said we basically have the jobs. It's just Sams Club but hey, it's like 5 blocks away from my house and it's money. And money equals apartment. I hope my mom talks to jen today to see if it's ours. The guy was supposed to pay her Friday and didn't. So it's lookin damn good right now. I can't wait. I talked to Ashley about it cause I know she didn't drink before and like really looked down on it and I was like, I can't do that. I want an apartment where I can chill out with my roomie and drink some beers, martinis, or margaritas one night and watch tv or movies. I wanna be able to have people over whenever or if mac wants to play cards over at the place. And suprisingly, she really didn't care. I think that this is her chance to really get out there and actually live. She said that she was down for drinking now but she doesn't drink beer. Hellooo....I will definately change that. I'm like a rarity as in beer never tasted bad to me. I liked it from the start. All of my friends say it's an acquired taste and they all hated it when they first started drinking it. Therefore, I get bragging rights. hehehehe. But yea. I'm really excited for it. I figure once I move out, I'll still cook dinner on wednesday but I'll just cook it at my moms. And then thursday I'll watch the apprentice over my dad's house. That way I'm still spending time with them. And hey...I might actually try and make it to church sunday morning and maybe breakfast..if i'm not dead from saturday night that is. We'll see how things go. But oh well. I'm waiting for erica to call to see if we're going to breakfast. Talk to you losers later.

Kiss Me

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